Hello, I'm back and I hope this post isn't too sad or makes myself look like a victim, but basically I think I have cleared my mind enough to notice that the reason of why I disappear into thin air like some kind of ghost, is basically because I have no motivation.

I understand my art isn't for everyone but there has to be someone on earth to like my art somehow + I've been recieving bullying and other kinds of messages and opinions about my art. I understand when something is an opinion, but not when you invest your whole life into trying to bully someone until this point. I have no motivation because no one looks at my art, not even speaking about how long it takes me to do it, but in general to get the idea because I'm not someone to be very creative and mostly use my emotions to do most of my art. And the atention I get, is most of the time very negative or just simply negative.

I once remember being on a discord server in which not only I get negative messages by the people there, but also by the mods, making fun of me and all kinds of stuff because I got into a problem with another girl which tried to make everything a competition, I didn't get too into the problem, and still she decided that it was a good idea to throw her friends at me, telling me all kinds of shit and even sometimes threats until I finally got banned from the server because it's ''all my fault'' and the owner simply didn't want me to go back into the server because she didn't want me to get more hate, which I don't understand why she just stopped it or something. I have some of the proof still.

After all this kind of stuff happening to me, and now until this day even though I'm no longer in that server, I still get hate by people which could simply ignore me, even block me or something, but there's always someone who takes their time to hate on me.

This is also kind of a vent post because I was tired of this and some of my friends which actually like my art, are quite eager for me to post something, which I wont probably do, not at least until I feel a little better or get some postive attention, maybe I will post some artwork in the future, but please, don't expect anything from me.

As always, I remind everyone that I only have two social medias (Instagram and twitter @adondemax) without counting everskies, in everskies my username is just like the newgrounds one. I would be very grateful if you see anyone stealing my artwork and telling me. You can contact me via discord, still Adondemax.

After all I just wanna let everyone know that I appreciate the positive attention I sometimes get, but I just wish I was able to reach more audience and be a bit more popular.

That's basically all, I wish this wasn't so long but I feel like I needed to give some explanation at least to the people who likes my drawings and actually read what I say. So if anyone is wondering, I'm not dead, I'm just gone and idk for how long I might be.

Have a nice day y'all